It has been at least a week and a half that I have been feeling trapped and wanting to both cry (but can’t) and fight (but not sure who or what.) It has been hard to get myself motivated to do anything, though I force myself to at least go for a walk every day. Which in some cases helped a little bit, but in others was not so good.
Got hit by a major high end panic attack the other day while on a walk, luckly I carry my medication for that with me. But before it could take effect, I turned a corner and walked into the middle of a fight. I more or less froze in my tracks, both wanting to put a stop to it and break it up, and help who ever it was on the receiving end. Felt like I was on high alert, every fiber was primed and ready, and felt like I was going to have a heart attack at the same time. I ended up walking away, cause the fight had resolved it’s self, but the rest of the day had a real surreal feeling to it. Every time some one walked out of a door way, I would jump out of my skin. And it seemed I could not get away from people in general long enough to calm down.
Think the medications I am taking is helping to some degree, but not quite doing the trick.
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